My life in Glee.

I am not sure if you are a fan of the Fox show Glee, but I do. They use songs to express themselves, and I often if  not always do the same. As long as I can remember, I have done this...Feeling the words of REM's Country Feedback in highschool when I felt misunderstood....Loneliness of the single life to Radiohead's Fake Plastic Trees...Yes, there are lots of happy songs in the list too, but we tend to remember the sad, don't we? Right now, the song that has grabbed me and I feel as if it is speaking straight to me is Home by Philip Phillips. Can't believe that I am using a song sung by an American Idol winner, but it is so.
In the beginning, he speaks of home and all the things that go along with being in a new place and trying to feel comfortable and settled. He repeats throughout..."I'm going to make this place your home". Me, with my have to accomplish it all attitude took it as I am going to have to take charge and make Iowa my family's home. I will be in charge, I will make everyone feel safe, the burden falls to me. Ok, yes, of course it does. It is my responsibility to be happy, to make sure the children are safe and have good spirits. But the more that I listened to the song- or really heard the song, I feel now that I could say that it could be written from God's perspective. Here are the lyrics.

Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home


Nice thought, isn't it? I have tried to give up questioning, wishing things were different and accept that we are where we are and that we will be better for ALL of it.